hey..im finally posting...although i noe this blog is dead but who cares..no one reads it anw..haha..
im practically juz blaberring n pouring out my feelings...haha..
i don care if pple don read...xcept u who's reading this..haha...
wadever..
a lot has happened...i juz cant bear the feeling...i don wanna tell ani1 abt it...i cant talk it out..dats y im typing it all out..haiz...
i realli made a wrong move last 3 mths...ive been sort of cheated?evry1 took me fer granted...esp those 2...i cant possibly love dem bof at the same tym ryte?haizz...wad was i tinking dat tym..bof of dem said dey loved me?is dat true?or isit theyre juz competing against me?well..i deserve it...i lost bof..now im a walking corpse...haiizz...
i treated bof well...dat i noe..but y r dey doing this to me?am i such u fcuking bustard?
even wen i loved n took care of bof of dem?
sheesh..
now bof hav a better guy den me...fine...i will try to live wif it although onli god noes how painful it is...
y nt juz avoid me?hmm...i don care...realli...if dats the bestthing they shud do den y not...but wadever it is...i will still love dem...
wads best fer dem is best fer me?ryte?haizz...im willing to sacrifice..
im flying solo...
wad was i tinking for the past 6mths?me being a "hensem n popular" guy"?!sheesshh...
diz is one of the worst thing dat had happened to me so far..
i hate 2005...
haizz..
because of this evry moment i kept on thinking of the guilt..the burden of the heartbreak...
haizz..y m i sooo stupid?
i loved herr..i mean dem..
but i was cheated n dumped...i mean..nt dumped...left...
haizz...she loved sum1 else dat tym ...y muz she lied to me?haizz...
all the hopes she gave me juz make me feel soo good...as if im such a confident person...
but now..all is left is memories...
we used to b sooo close..now?its almost as if i juz knew herr..
i shudnt hv even loved her in the ferstb place..she 's too good to b true..my all tym crush ever since sec2 being mine?i muz b dreaming...
n da other gal was one of the cutest n preetiest gal i met..i ever confessed to her how much i loved her..but too badd...i wasnt gd enuff..its juz too hard to let her goo...even though we r still close..i feel soooo bump knowing dat theres a guy who like herr..though we had endless sms session..itys juz not the same...
knowing that sum1 else liked herr..
am i thinking too much n taking this too seriously?
well...i cant help it...
all i wanted frm them was at least to b there wen i needed dem 1 day..well..dats the least they cud do fer me..
being such a lonli guy wiff sooo lil frenz...sheeshh..
ok...i think i had enuf fer todayy...i felt a lil better..
wow..haha...i hope diz bliog cud b a personal blog..which is a most probable thing..coz no one remmebers my address..haha...mayb a few..those few hu happens to read this..
juz keep it to ur self...
im still hurt...though i look okay...
BUT IM NOT..haha..wadever..this is lyf i guess?it juz seems to get worst by the day..
haha..kk...bubbye...